dunno why…but thanks.

 i know i promised…

but something seems to be pulling the cursor away from here…stress?  …maybe.

Chester's (my team mate) Dad died   today of Cancer. he was only diagnosed with it yesterday, literally.  Unfortunately, it was in stage 4.  i feel for Ches. i lost 2 loved ones to the big C myself. Tita Precy to colon cancer and Ate Jo to cervical.  it's a traitor of a diease, i know. it hides undetectable for so long. complications make it even harder for the doctors, esp. to those who are not from St. Luke's or that caliber….bottom line - money still talks even in death. sad.

i'm pretty gloomy today.  reason why i did not want to blog 'cause i have such good news happening recently. i'll let you in on the headlines, though the juicy details will have to wait.  things i "was" raving about was DJ Delamar's bday (RX  Monster radio 93.1 FM  ), my gift for her, my quest for my "lost" treasures, my "last one standing" trophy - minus the guy on the top (no! not what you are probably thinking about - if it's related to pro-creation, that is!), the P4P that just came in today (to be added to my winnings portion of the blog), band vocalists/fitness buff/starlet guy who's not seen around anymore (to be added to the star-encounters corner), and missing the WWE  wrestlers who were in Robinson's Galleria earlier! **sigh**… good thing i have the Fan Packs Request from US baseball  and football  teams to look forward to in the coming days, cheers!

okay, remind me i need to breath.  one other factor so stressful is the gf's attitude, esp. when it hits 8pm.  MAN! what's she thinking, demanding!!! reason why my life is ever more peaceful without a cell phone. which is a fact that by the way i hesitantly blurted out into a text message last night. i was frustrated but no excuses. i actually think that i have no regrets for blurting that out. one moment in time when i found myself being truly truly honest with about my feelings.  you know, times when you don't have to worry what she'll say, how she'll respond which could escalate to something really nasty later on or the day after.

i'm glad for blogs.  thank you to whoever made it happen.  it's almost as good as screaming to the top of my lungs all my frustrations (getting emotio here…not good). 

random thoughts…… 

hmn, good title for either a blog or a customized content (only the latter won't have a record of those posted)….like this one.

1. i guess i'm a people pleaser –my curse!

2. i miss my mom, my bros, my cousins, my kuyas and ates.  i miss them.

3. i'm tired of my gf but i love her –my other curse (which i can break but not ready to - -)

4. i'm thankful. cause i'm alive, i have a 100% chance of making things right.

5. i know how to, i just don't know why i don't.

man, i have to chill.  breathe. again.